The Train to the River

I'm easing in to my first week at my new job, donning that job title again "Art Director".

and i must say it feels different now, it still feels surreal, but I dont know--i dont sense any fear or worry though. i feel apathy really, yes the pay is good, but more and more i just keep saying to myself the thing that i told myself before two years ago--that i thought i fully understood and was ready to accept--that this is a fuckin' business just a creaking machine of capitalism--and that i shouldnt really ascribe anything pure and noble to it, that's it.

when you start thinking that way--things get a little--ewan, basta. It still feels weird ng kaunti, like today is wednesday--if my life didn't reset last monday, i would probably be cramming a paper for my class this afternoon...but instead i am not worrying about that right now... am thinking of that "big idea" for a creative pitch for a local bank. everything hangs in the balance--my job, my career, syempre i have to show the agency na I have a say...but more and more i feel like it doesnt matter anymore. i can't churn design after design just like that...but i'll do what i can, if the agency thinks am not at par with the other art directors then...babye nalang hehehe

yung lang naman yung nararamdaman ko ngayon. thinking of the campus once in awhile, but now i'm just glad of the different environment.

i'm blessed, cause i feel that no matter what happens i'll be fine.
i'll just be fine.

*sigh