The Angel of History

Yesterday's class meeting was weird. Prof told us to meet at 4pm in the afternoon only to find a note on her door saying na we were absent--the class was supposed to meet at 1pm.

Did I tell you I was really looking forward to the discussion? Yes. So it was really disappointing that things didn't play out as planned. :-(

Since we skipped a meeting, we're going to dive in agad with the topics. Each of us got assigned a subject to discuss next week... I have two documents. One by Culler :) and one by Levi-Strauss. Kaya ko ba ito? well, I just have to try I guess. Iisipin ko nalang siguro na parang book club ito, yun nga lang instead of talking about fiction, I'll be talking about über complicated jargon...

a prof told me once na "bananas" daw na sabihin na lit majors talk much nonsense--gibberish. As with any other profession my terms naman talaga na specific doon sa field of expertise mo. She has a point naman. Though medyo feeling ko kailangan ko pa mag-adapt sa "discursive formations" ng CAL eh, wala talaga I gotta start something, somewhere. Dito na ba magtatapos ang grad studies ko? we have to maintain a high grade kasi...form what I've heard as much as possible NO grade below than 2. *sigh

Basta if I go down, I'll go down not without a fight.

So I have a week to prepare. Thank gawd eto lang subject ko...kasi bukod sa work ko meron pakong raket this week...am stressed nanaman, especially over the weekend puro OT ako dito. tapos my french pako sa sabado and my assignment na din. WAAAHHH.

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medyo mahirap yung french ko this term kasi, sobrang french kung french yung titser. unlike sa dati kong titser na sinasabi in english after french, yung current teacher ko eh 4 to 5 sentences na dire-diretsong french tapos bits of english phrases on the side... nahihiya naman akong mag-demand na englishin niya, since none of my classmates mind.

nagising talga ako nung Sat kahit wala pakong tulog nun, kasi ako yung unang-una tinawag para i-introduce yung sarili ko sa class--and what do i do, and stuff. '-.-

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wish me luck.

but on a lighter side, I got a needed cheer me up in the form of Benjamin's "Theses on the Philosophy of History" bakit? well medyo na gets ko siya since aware naman nako sa mga ibang jargon na ginagamit niya, and hello nag-historiographic metafiction na kaya ako last sem ;)
natuwa lang kasi ako dahil napaka-poetic ng essay na ito. Seryoso.

It's sad na Benjamin only became famous when he died. napaka-tragic diba? parang katulad ni nietzsche, sobrang naapektuhan ako nung sinabi niya na he knows na yung mga nasulat niya eh para sa tao na hindi pa nabubuhay sa kaniyang panahon, --na hindi pa sila pinanganganak....anyways, man, hanga ako sa writing style ni Benjamin. Especially on the part na he describes the "Angel of History" referring to a Paul Klee painting.

the Angel of history! just to formulate an argument about material historicists

yun lang.

later